Laying ALL Of It Out There
There is no excuse now.
The trauma that has been almost two years takes its final step tomorrow. There is nothing more to do that cannot be handled while pursuing a future.
These past few years stem from my sister’s death, outside of my immediate family, THE most important person in my life. I could go on for hours on how fundamental she was to everything I did and thought of doing.
The last thing she left me while her presence graced this earth was the advice, “You have to go on.”
But her mantra while alive and the phrase she based her entire life on was: “Hope For the best.”
It’s hard to look at that like nothing more than “pie in the sky” thinking. I mean, what does the word “hope” really mean anyway?
hope
/hōp/
noun
a feeling of expectation and desire for a sure thing to happen.
All of those words require a mental action and nothing physical. I’m pretty sure it’s understood that by “physical,” no action is being done.
But no actual “red carpet” has ever been laid out to me. Everything I have ever done or wanted I have had to work for. I have learned over the years that the only person I can rely on getting me further in life is me.
This mindset is something that I have tried to instill over the years in my daughter. Needless to say, she has taken that attitude and ran with it. Right out of the gate from college, she has managed to lay down tracks on the correct road for success as a sound mixer and sound technician. Sound, a difficult skill to master in live theater, not an easy area.
She reminds me of me at that age and the time when I got out of college. But the road maintaining that momentum can be tricky, and I will be there to offer advice and help as much as possible. Yet I can’t help but be sad and envious of her position. I loved that time and know had I not been detoured, I would’ve arrived at where I was heading. I am not being egotistical by writing this.
So now that the excuses for “not doing” can no longer be justified, there are a few reachable tasks I have to do to get my life and career together.
- Write SOMETHING each and every day with a time limit and deadline. Train for actual writing assignments and not just “play around.”
- SHOOT or EDIT SOMETHING daily
- Use and Learn the Adobe Cloud elements (Premiere, After Effects, Photoshop)
- Exercise
- Meditate
- Create opportunities — NOT CALL IT “LOOKING FOR WORK.”
These goals and practicing hope(because mental work is as essential as physical) have been stated and promised before with little to no result.
Can I keep these promises?
I hope I can, but I will work to make these happen just as important.
