A NECESSITY, A NEED, IS IT ME?
Is it me?
As I try to remember, the world can and will get by without me being its center of concern.
But as I try to gain more stable employment, constantly apply for jobs in my field, and develop those skills that I have fallen behind with over the years, I can’t help but notice the growing chorus of crickets that respond.
Like the course of the past two years as I struggled (and continue to work) with my sister’s passing. My trustee’s complete betrayal and thievery of her Trust left to me. I have to find my way.
NOBODY was prepared for COVID-19.
NOBODY was prepared for quarantine.
NOBODY was prepared for the radical change in the Pandemic’s jobs structure.
Part of why I can’t help sharing the blame for my lack of stable unemployment is the news that the job market is back and that unemployment is at an all-time low. And it’s also because I can’t face the thought of returning to a job outside of my writing and video production field. And it’s also the fact that the American response nowadays to almost everything is, “it is what it is, so pull those bootstraps up.”
The forced attitude for almost anything done in America is accepting necessity over need.
For myself, I define necessity as doing or accepting “something” because of physical and tangible reasons. But I look at need as a personal nature bordering on want.
From my own experience, I know that it is next to impossible to ignore necessity. I get it.
But that doesn’t mean it sits well with the soul. And, of course, we all accept that the soul is the driving component of us all.
As I would define it, accepting necessity over one’s need goes against who a person is or who an individual shares a mirror with. Open denial of one’s self presents a potentially dangerous road to travel. While on that path, the reason to trudge on needs outside reinforcement. Those survival packages are “wild cards” with one purpose only, to keep you going. With choices outside of ourselves, choosing a method lends no thought or care to what such a choice will do in our lives. This mode of living could explain why over half of the American population hates what they do.
But time is a factor that cannot be ignored. Time, our time on Earth, can end on a dime, or it can be squandered. Next to water, time is the most crucial element affecting our lives. Therefore, the need must be worked for.
I need to write because I want to be a writer.
I need to DO video shoots because I need to do video shoots.
I know they have my best interests at heart, but those around me often chide me about doing those things without getting paid but for free. That choice is a whole another article in itself. I’m making the point that I am doing the work and traveling down that unknown roadway pressed on by what it can do for me. And that alone is the impetus to care for me.
“Employers involved with writing and video production, if your reading this-”
My methodology for working towards the above goals of writing and video is working on them regardless of there not being a monetary reward because it is the only thing I know to do to get down that road.
I can’t do it alone. The beauty of life is needing others. A chance given can be a reward. An opportunity provided will be a decision beneficial beyond a station in life. A need, given its moment, creates a life worth living, as all life is intended to be.
Humbly, I need to make this request.
